Leaving for Florida- Spring Break 2K17

These 3 are so excited to spend a week in Ft. Lauderdale, FL! We made it to the airport by the skin of our teeth and lots of prayers😌. Spring break here we come! Unfortunately for our friends and family back home- it will be cold and rainy but that just makes this group a little more excited!! Can't beat a place that guarantees warm weather, warm water and sun ☀️! Wish dad could've come but he's working while we sight see and play🏝😎

2 little monkeys at Castle Park

Both of these girls have mastered the monkey bars!

Back in my hometown!

After San Diego we moved to Phoenix for a couple months. Let's just say it wasn't any better there except to have family close by. It was wonderful being able to be near my sister Trista. It was healing for me and our family. After we realized we were hitting a dead end, Jesse touched base with his previous employer Siemens regarding any positions available. Timing is everything and within about 6 weeks, Jesse was offered a position and we packed up again to make a permanent move back to our hometown in Cameron Park. 

We had such an amazing welcome home from so many friends and family. It felt good, it felt right. I can't even express the joy and comfort people made us feel when we returned. 2016 was the hardest year of our life and coming back was like returning to a soft, loving place to land. 

Unfortunately I am still in the throws of a custody battle over Ryan. Matt doesn't want to allow me to go back to equal time with Ryan even though it's something he says he wants. He presented inaccurate information to the judge regarding information required to set an amount for child support. Due to my absence at the hearing and my niavity that correct information would be presented, I was hit with a monthly child support amount of $633 a month. Backdating to September 1st, 2016. You want to believe that people try to be honest and truthful especially the father of your son, but I know now he will do whatever it takes to hurt me and make me pay (for who knows what) I did to him. I look forward to this mess being over! 

Ryan's first official visit to San Diego

I'm sitting here in the airport waiting for Ryan to land. This has been the longest time I have ever been away from my baby! I feel like I am jumping out of my skin, so excited to wrap my arms around my little boy!! I hate what he has to go through and all I can hope is this separation with us is only temporary. He needs his mommy and I need his sensitive, loving, caring spirit around me on a regular basis. We have been through so much together. If it weren't for him I wouldn't be who I am today. When he made me a mother for the first time, it changed my life. For the first time I wanted to do better, be better and give him the world. I love him more than I love myself. He is the reason I wanted to change my life. I want to lead him by example down the paths of life that will bring him the most joy and happiness. 

This little boy deserves the world and I hope to be there for him- whether near or far.  I want to be the person and mother he needs me to be.

This plane can not land soon enough!!!

Relocating to San Diego

We have finally moved to San Diego and have been here for 1 month. Mikayla is almost 19 and Kylee is 15, both live with their mother in El Dorado County. My hopes were to have Ryan down here. I never thought it would turn into the nightmare court battle that is has.
Ryan is now 11 and is living in EDC with his dad until we go through the long court process, all which is ugly and so emotionally and physically draining on everyone. I can't imagine what my little guy is going through and it is the part that breaks my heart the most. I went jogging this morning and heard the most amazing talk by Elder Holland. I know it was Heavenly Father speaking directly to me. It gave me the hope and motivation that I so desperately needed to keep moving forward. I know everything happens for a reason and I look forward to looking back on this time to see where I grew in my life and in what the Lord saw that I needed to become a better person, a better mother, a better friend, a better daughter, and a better sibling.
My goal is to start journaling my experiences through this difficult time so I can look back and get strength for the future things I may need to go through in life.

Kemery's shoes

I'm loving the shoes Kemery came out of her room with this morning-too funny!

Addison hair cut

My almost 4 year old little princess is sporting a new due💇